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SMITHTeens Forum by roaringsilence

roaringsilence

Smithteeners, I have a challenge for you, should you choose to accept it. I challenge you to come up with three things you love about yourself and if you feel so inclined, write them down. why? because loving yourself can be one of the hardest things to do. because you are beautiful and you deserve to feel great.

SMITHTeens Forum by Sarahh

Sarahh

I am venting, I always vent, I am sorry.
I come back from my two week vacation, friends telling me how much they miss me... blahblah. One we make plans, they lie, and ditch me.
I feel like crying.
I seriously do.
I am more stressed then I was before vacation.
Its like... Oh, cool, I kinda thought we had plans planned? And then you just ditch me? Plus lying.
I mean, at least don't lie.
oh, "Something came up." or "I have to finish some work." Good thing you would rather go hang out with your other friends..
and I mean, I know they still love me, i just feel forgotten, or not important.
...
Thanks, guys. Thanks. FUCK.
I mean, maybe its just PMS, or... I just hate lying.
Maybe I am taking this out of control, but...
I am frustrated.

SMITHTeens Forum by Unlabled&Barefoot

Unlabled&Barefoot

Hey dude
Hey bro
Yo I just benchpressed 50 lbs
That's nothing, I once wrestled a bear with my bare hands.
Oh yeah? I went swimming in a lake with electric eels once.
I once pushed my car 75 miles in the snow because I ran out of gasoline.

Guys.
Males.
Men.
Shut the FUCK up. The reason I don't have many male friends are the reasons listed above. Stop bragging about yourselves and take interest in someone else or something in common; you don't have to impress me. Please stop trying so hard, and then I won't feel obliged to.

love,
U&B

SMITHTeens Forum by BehindMyBlueEyes

BehindMyBlueEyes

I miss being held,
I miss the little things you used to do,
I miss the some of the things you were,
But I don't miss you.
I miss feeling loved,
I even miss being asked, "You're dating who?"
I miss having a boyfriend
But I don't miss you.

SMITHTeens Forum by danisaur

danisaur

continued from last post...

and most of my friends like him will think i'm a jerk. i mean, thats another flaw of mine; insecurity.

and i'm closing this rant cause i feel blah.

thanks for listening.
byes....

OH and if anyone has any backpacking tip please share!

SMITHTeens Forum by danisaur

danisaur

Havn't done a rant in a while, I feel strange/really annoyed/indifferent/nervous as hell/excited/lonely/hungry/tired/crowded/broken/content/obsessed. all at the same filippin' time. i mean, is that even possible?

so i had a week of camp this past week. and i'm doing sleepaway/backpacking next week i leave sunday. which is suppossed to be tons of fun.

THE CATCH: theres this guy. AND no, not like that. i guess you could call us friends, but really we just get stuck together alot. and he drives me absoloutly bonkers. crazy. he gets me so annoyed. and yeah, he's going to the camp with me.

ughhhh, sorry to bore you with my problems. if you are getting annoyed with me and my trivial isuues please stop reading. anyhow, i always feel tied down to this guy cause he is ALWAYS frikin' copying my schedual. it ticks me off.
i mean i try something new.
he's there.
i go to work.
he's there.
i play basketball.
he's there. and whenever he does something better then anyone he goes ON AND ON AND ON about how "amazing" and "awesome" he is. and how everyone else is so "stupid" and "lame". he likes singling me out too. like "oh danny, you're gonna be out next, cause i'm behind you." :P i don't like arguing.

so i try not to say anything much back, cause i don't want to blow up and yell at him and then most of my friends...... to be continued. holy crap i ran outta words....

SMITHTeens Forum by compulsive.confessor

compulsive.confessor

I think from now on...I'm not gonna care about the age differences anymore. unless its drastically low or high. As long as I'm happy, that person will be all I need. :)

SMITHTeens Forum by danisaur

danisaur

I think the more I get to know people, the more they get on my nerves...

SMITHTeens Forum by LasVegas

LasVegas

I spoke the words "I love you"
for the first time in over a year.
Sure, I tell my cats I love them. My relatives. And Baker. Because she's like my sister.
But I never said it to another boy in a long, long time.
And it hurt, almost. To say it. But after the pain a sense of joy rushed into the void of my heart that someone once carved out.
I really do love him.
And if anything ever happened to him, I would give up everything.
He loves me, he loves my son, he loves my 6 cats, he loves the fact that I trip over air and think fruit salad looks like clowns.
It's all unconditional.
It's all perfect.

SMITHTeens Forum by dancingqueen

dancingqueen

all is going beautifully, my life is so amazing right now. against all odds, he is mine and I am his and all is right in the world. so why did I just have the most mind numbingly, most suddenly gripping fear that when we are at different schools for highschool, he'll find someone else? someone better? someone he'll see every day? It feels like a cold hand reached out and is strangling my heart and drowning my soul. I just randomly started crying. I don't understand it. I know he loves me, I do. so why am I being so...so...insecure? and where all did this fear come from? one moment, I'm happy as a bumblebee, next moment...this. I am so scared. I can't think straight, and I can barely move, I can barely breathe. it's so vivid and so shocking and so...sudden.

SMITHTeens Forum by harrypotterstarz

harrypotterstarz

I read what you wrote,
Your promises to leave him, to make a better life for us both.
But you broke that promise, you're still here. And I'm still here, too, trapped in this house until you're strong enough to leave.

SMITHTeens Forum by small, saddened, searching.

small, saddened, searching.

"I wish life could be as easy as hitting a pipe."

SMITHTeens Forum by J600y3

J600y3

Anything too stupid to be said is sung.

- Voltaire

SMITHTeens Forum by Unlabled&Barefoot

Unlabled&Barefoot

Before I say anything, I write all of this for myself, and if you or someone you know happens to get something out of it, play with these words however you wish.

He's in my cell phone background. He acts incredibly silly when we're alone. He's my support through anything life throws. It was only last night where we said goodbye again after staying at his house for five days. Painful doesn't describe the experience well enough. I guess the correct word would be...wrong. It felt wrong to leave him. Yet no matter how often we hang out, we'll always wind up leaving one another sooner or later. So why is it we both always cry when this happens? I'd like to believe it's for legitimate true love. Which exists between a 19 year old male from MA and an 18 year old male from NY. And when I got home, it didn't feel like home. It felt like the place that's housing me until I leave on August 21st. His house. His family. He felt like home. I don't know what the future holds, but I'm doing all I can to make sure that in the future, I hold him.

SMITHTeens Forum by dancingqueen

dancingqueen

I love him so much. please don't hate him?

SMITHTeens Forum by VulgarViolet

VulgarViolet

Today is the day :) The day that will change everything... I hope. He is coming to see me, and you know I have been for a long time for this. Today we will make love or make our seperate ways. I hope it is the former, but I am prepared for the latter. But no matter what happens, Andrew, I love you.

SMITHTeens Forum by Yours Truly <3

dont tell me you love me.
your love is a lie.
if love is blind,
then you opened your eyes.
tell me,
what did i do
that was so horrible
to make you hate me
like you do.
there was always a condition to your love,
i guess i just never measured up.

SMITHTeens Forum by Yours Truly <3

how can you expect respect
when you don't give it at all?
you always say "follow the golden rule"
but if i treated you like you treat me,
you'd feel just like i do.
you'd have the ache in your chest
that reaches so deep
you have no choice
but to roll over and sleep.
you'd cry all the time
because of the emptiness inside.
you'd feel lost and alone.
hopeless and confused.
you'd want to leave,
just like i do.
you can't blame me for
the way i feel,
when it's all your fault.
i wish you knew.

SMITHTeens Forum by Yours Truly <3

daddy,
how can you blame this
all on me?
when youre the one
who yells at everybody.
telling us that we're not good enough.
that we dont give a fuck about anybody
but ourselves.
even though we're the only ones trying
to get help.
daddy,
why cant you see,
how much you're hurting me?
or is it that,
you just dont care,
because you hate me for everything,
i dont do.
daddy,
when are you going to see,
that everything you say,
and everything you do,
is so wrong,
and not our fault?
will you ever take the blame
for the things that are your fault?
or will you keep pushing it on us
until we fall apart?

SMITHTeens Forum by Juju

Juju

Sometimes all you need is a little push in the right direction.
Sometimes you know you have to do something but you're not brave enough to do it alone.
Sometimes all you need is a friend to tell you that you deserve more.
Sometimes you figure out that what you had wasn't what you really wanted.
Sometimes you realize that even though he broke your heart you wouldn't have it any other way.